rain. boots. coat.

the rain makes me happy. i'm not sure why, it just does.
its probably because i love the smell.
its very fresh and clean.
i love the smell of rain.

today is his birthday. i've been contemplating saying it. not directly but through his brother.
this sure does make me feel like a coward, but i really can't talk to him.
after this last summer all he's ever brought me was pain.

time for class.
this will continue...

its almost 2 now

i said happy birthday.
enough of that. i'm not sure how i feel.

the rain makes me smile. i love being bundled up in my boots and coat.
so much warmth. i feel like going to the beach but i don't think it'll happen.
my hair loses control in this weather. people say things spit it but i don't know if its a compliment or they're making fun of me.
who knows. i like it.
it makes me feel a bit wild and sexy. lol.

i hope the rain continues for a little bit but not too long. i want to see the butterflies with him.
he makes me smile and feel like a little girl.
even though he makes me happy i don't trust him.

more on this later. time for class.