never imagined

happyness fills my lungs with each breath

i melt with every touch

my love

sweet little trip

going away to santa barbara
playing the fray
i'm losing myself in a swirl of happyness
will it ever stop?
i hope not.
i don't want to lose this again.
love.

this time

i'm not quite sure what is happening
i have had time to process this now and still can't
the love, it's obviously there
no doubt about it

he's himself and i'm myself
it's really as if things never changed, yet they have in so many ways
we're both taking this one step at a time
we've only barely touched upon the outer layer of who we are
there are many things he doesn't know about me and many that i don't know about him
only time will tell of what will happen between us
whether it be closure, a friendship or more
i have no expectations, which is how i usually think of things
no need to get ahead of myself when nothing is certain

first thoughts...

red alert: unexpectedness
going to pass out and die
g o i n g t o p a s s o u t a n d d i e
how could you do this to me now?
i'm finally recovering and you return
i can't say i'm not surprised


i drew you to me
i'm mad at myself for bringing this upon myself in the past week


it's been a week since i thought of you
it's been a week since i found you
it's been a week since i put the p
                                                    i       e  c
                                                        e   
                                                                s 
                                                                   together


don't do this
not now