opening eyes

i woke up from a long nap.
i was so tired, i slept on my fucked up bed.
its really funny that it got so destroyed.
there were so many funny things that happened last night.
it was all so much fun
yet, why is it that things can be so wrong when they feel so right?
i said i would hold my breath and jump in, this is a hard.
i can't put my guard down as hard as i try.
i want to trust him i do. i just can't.
how can i trust someone i haven't known for very long?
every time he hold me i wonder if he really cares.
every time his sweet lips kiss me i wonder if there's meaning behind them.
his touch is so soft and gentle. it drives me crazy.
i like this feeling, i like it a lot. i know it is bound to disappear, i don't want to lose it.
what is wrong with me!
my friend and i feel the same way. we must scream. we have to scream. let it all out. every bit out.
i'm glad that i'm not alone. love her to death.

"happiness damn near destroys you
breaks your faith to pieces on the floor
so you tell yourself that's enough for now
happiness has a violent roar"

-the fray