mariposa

i've started to write my thoughts down.
they're tangled up in a world of day dreams.
lost within the boundaries of my own mind.
inner most feelings.
i'm healing.


"twist and turns.
things were upside down.
it's time to think and grow.
expanding from left to right.
going way up high then way down low.
don't let people stop what is being written in time.
they don't know what goes on in my mind.
they can't read me how i can read them.
stop.
the flow has been disrupted.
time is going out of control.
thoughts are scrambling.
emotions...blank...no comment?
empty.
this hollow heart still beats.
echos ringing.
echos falling.
echos in every breath i take.
thum
     thu
         m
                  th
                        um
                                th
                                  u
                                     m"


"let me write.
fuzziness of white thickening my vision.
darkness falling down.
sophicating from within.
blur...this is a blur.
closing when trying to open wide.
wide enough to see it all.
every color detail of texture.
sinking up at time moves upside down, turn around and backwards.
splashing into air with the smell of rain.
cleaning the way.
cleaning the toxic.
eyes of mine.
see yourself sending messages to the mind.
wondering how to expand it.
coughing up smoke from the toxic feeding in through you.
open. shut. open.
in. out. in. out...
time is still as ink creates.
a beginning to a world of difference.
emotions touching pages, touching lives.
what creates can also destroy.
pain made that doesn't go away.
let me down in my world of sorrow.
time took you away.
happyness was clear as the days we spend in our rain drop.
let me kiss those lips.
goodbye."