sleep

i don't know where i was this week.
in the past couple of weeks.
i lost myself.
i fell asleep and never woke up.
its been hard for me to figure out what's real and what's not.
my dreams are following me into the real world.
i swear he called me.
i checked my phone, but he didn't.
i dreamt of the other boy.
the stupid one that lives down the street.
everything was fine and dandy.
i don't know.

now i sit here with a blank mind.
i know that i'm ready to explode inside.
but it isn't going to happen.
not for a while.