writing little bits and pieces of my mind again

silence

i have been stuck in my thoughts
but they are no where to be found
i do not write them down
they are my secrets
but secrets that i may forget
possibly because i don't want to remember
good bad sad mad happy jokes future past...
different
they're always different thoughts
wondering around without anywhere to go
i'm not sure why i keep them in
sometimes i'm afraid that i don't share them enough
and i begin to fade away from people

are my thoughts keeping me from who i am?

where has the time gone

dear blog,

i haven't seen you in months

life has been very busy and going pretty well

yet here i am again

always returning to you because i long to write

write in a way that i can express myself and be alright

you are a part of my ying yang blogs on blogspot

you are open, while the other is not

strange that i like you more

perhaps it's because i've had you longer

i haven't forgotten about you

and never will

on blog we need to spend more time together

a lot has happened since the last time i wrote in you

let's catch up after finals

me

a new school year is about to begin
i'm not sure if i'm ready yet
4th year..the final year of my undergraduate career
i'm scared and excited
i still the 1st year in me
unaware of what is to come
being fond of the same things

i stand still while the world moves

you are when i hurt
you are my pain
sadness in words
it never seems to go away

i don't understand why i don't understand people
or is it that they just don't understand me?
i feel insecure about myself as it is
i don't speak very much because i know i can be socially awkward
i'm honest, or at least i try really hard to be
i have a lot of things that run in my head
but i know/try not to say them because i don't want to hurt people's feelings
not that i'm doing it intentionally
it's just what i observe and read others
it's hard not to respond honestly when a friend wants to know what you think

i don't understand friendships
but i still have hope that i someday will
there are few that give me hope
i'm sensitive about friendships
because it's hard to really believe in them
and at times
when i do
i learn to find out they were never real
i get hurt

yes
i have my partner
my love
but even he can't fill this emptiness

Estoy Aqui

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