missing you

i close my e y e s to see you clearly in my thoughts

holding hands in the park

as we walk through the grass filled with leaves

soft wind blowing by

let me live in this moment for all time

let me get lost in your eyes

i miss you.

thinking of you

i want your arms around me.
tender kisses from your lips.
snuggling me with your soft eskimo kisses.
whispering sweet nothingess in my ear.
i love you.
a smile upon my face when i think of you.
hold me close and please don't let go.
time stand stills. it's only me and you.
starring into each others e y e s, reading each others mind.
flowing freely through each others souls.
we are complete alone. alive.
but together we create.

winter quarter 2010

new beginnings, new me

positive outlook on life

excited for what is to come

work on developing self and learning

let go of the past and move forward

think of the now, be now

be me, independent and happy

i love travis, but he doesn't define me

i must allow myself to open up with him.

keep going sandy

keep going

breathe

never imagined

happyness fills my lungs with each breath

i melt with every touch

my love

sweet little trip

going away to santa barbara
playing the fray
i'm losing myself in a swirl of happyness
will it ever stop?
i hope not.
i don't want to lose this again.
love.

this time

i'm not quite sure what is happening
i have had time to process this now and still can't
the love, it's obviously there
no doubt about it

he's himself and i'm myself
it's really as if things never changed, yet they have in so many ways
we're both taking this one step at a time
we've only barely touched upon the outer layer of who we are
there are many things he doesn't know about me and many that i don't know about him
only time will tell of what will happen between us
whether it be closure, a friendship or more
i have no expectations, which is how i usually think of things
no need to get ahead of myself when nothing is certain

first thoughts...

red alert: unexpectedness
going to pass out and die
g o i n g t o p a s s o u t a n d d i e
how could you do this to me now?
i'm finally recovering and you return
i can't say i'm not surprised


i drew you to me
i'm mad at myself for bringing this upon myself in the past week


it's been a week since i thought of you
it's been a week since i found you
it's been a week since i put the p
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                                                        e   
                                                                s 
                                                                   together


don't do this
not now