chuck

missed shout out loud bingo
i think i made a sexy guy

suffocating

i feel myself drowning with every breath i try to take
my words are drowning
i'm forcing myself to swallow them whole
burning my throat
burning my lungs
burning my soul
i'm choking
let me go
no one should hold me down
no one should instill this f o r c e
this p o w e r over me
i'm not weak
i stand tall for myself
it only gets harder when someone else has an advantage
a p r i v i l e g e

try to drown my words
choke me with all your might
words...
they have a way of making themselves known
i will take a breath
i will spit
my words..they will be heard

chameleon

changing in front of my eyes
no longer warm but cold and blue
its something i see
wishing everyone could see
the change that is skin deep
but not as easily seen
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jumpy perky happy
thoughts that may possibly cross your mind
this is different
not a feeling
a change needed to move forward
even if only for a few hours
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if only you would stop
and let them see who i see
don't be insecure
tracings through your tough words
i whisper in my mind

sleepless saying

silence slows down my thoughts.
slows down time.
stop.
its time to breathe.

captivated

i saw your honey eyes again

they were in a dream i had last night

you come unexpectedly

making me miss you and want to be with you

i felt you

soft skin

tender lips

sweet sweet honey eyes

glazed with tears

you were in pain

i wanted to help

you never let me

i never let you

spinning until i fell

you showed up

helped me

i pushed you away

tears that never disappear

inspiration

te vi
te conosco
soon to be c r e a t e d
no te vas a ir
estas en mi mente
estas en mi corazon
healing expression

mental images of things i want to draw
let me put down my pencil to c r e a t e

october

cool breeze
sunny skies
red, orange, yellow, brown leaves
swirling
round and round
crunch!
i stepped on one...two....five...nine
happiness

hello october autumn
you're my season of fascination